Wednesday 2/25/09

I weighed in at 190.4 today. Last night I stayed within carbs and calories and fat and I even had 3 candy cane hershey's kisses. I got the disapproving look from my husband on the hershey's kisses, but I figure if I'm good on my calories, carbs, and fat - then it's ok right? I'm still lighter than I was yesterday, so that's good.
It's so weird that without HCG I'm ok with eating less than 1200 calories. Some days I eat more, but for the most part I'm right between 1150-1200 on normal days and I'm not hungry. I can remember last year at this time and I was dieting, I had the hardest time eating 1200 calories a day, I was always so hungry. It was really tough to get my calories down that low, and now I have the hardest time getting my calories above that.

Tuesday 02/24/09

I was back to 191.3 today, so it looks like I can successfully maintain as long as I don't go too crazy on the carbs and sugar.
Today I am eating:
breakfast - coffee with 2 svg's of flavored protein powder
snack - 4 oz plain 0% greek yogurt with sliced strawberries and a little splenda
lunch - leftover green chicken casserole, apple slices and snap peas (the green chicken casserole is low fat, low calorie and somewhat low carb)
snack - 12 almonds and 1 babybel light cheese
dinner - grilled chicken and grilled veggies

I haven't put that in my calorie counter yet, so it may be light on the calories, if it is I will add something for "dessert" after dinner or I will eat extra dinner.

I really wanted to get up this morning and do turbo jam, but I'm so lazy in the morning. A year ago I was getting up around 5am and working out every morning, I know I can do it, I just need to force myself to get into the habit again.

Monday 2/23/09

Sorry I haven't posted the last couple days. Thursday I took my kids to a concert 350 miles away. I didn't really eat much. We had lunch on the road but I was good, I had a burger with no bun and about 1/4 svg of fries. Then we couldn't really find anything to eat for dinner around the concert venue, when we did find something the 4 of us shared it. I had one mini burger with no bun, and 2 pieces of french bread (I know what was the point of no bun on the burger huh?)
Then on the drive home I had an energy drink, and a ton of sunflower seeds. I only got about 1 hour of sleep before I had to get my butt to work. I was actually down to 189.0 on Friday and Saturday morning. I was pretty happy about that. I was supposed to go to my weigh in appointment at the clinic but someone was supposed to come and replace my windshield and they never showed up, so I sat at home waiting and wasted my day. I was "bad" on Saturday, we ordered pizza. I only ate the thin crust, but throughout the day I had 4 pieces. On Sunday we went to the Renaissance Festival, I ate lots of junk. Well not really lots, but a lot more than I usually eat. I had a turkey leg, then I had half of a crepe with strawberries and whipped cream, 2 chocolate covered strawberries, some cinnamon roasted almonds, an italian icee and some lemonade. So I didn't eat a ton, but it was more than usual and junk. I told my husband between now and the honeymoon (which is 3 weeks away), I have got to be good. Back to eating mostly like the HCG phase but bigger portions. I'll probably eat cheese and greek yogurt and almonds, but I need to eat clean instead of this junk I have been.
It's tough though, it's like once you start eating like crap again, it's so easy to continue and it's hard to get out of that rut again. But I've got to, I don't want to gain anything back. This morning I was 193.0, I'm scared to see what I will be tomorrow because I'm assuming it will take a day or two to catch up with me.
My husband went grocery shopping today though and got all of our healthy food for the week, so we are ready to be good.

Wednesday 2/18/09

Last night I ended up having taco bell. It was date night last night and my husband and I went to look at and buy a truck, so we just ate on the way. I still was pretty low on calories, carbs and fat - so that is good. (1010 cal; 74 carbs; 26 fat; 127 protein) This morning the scale was back to 191.9 - so I'm happy about that.
I ate half of a almond butter and jelly sandwich today. It was good. It was on whole wheat bread. A little high on the carbs and fat, but as long as I stick to my plan for dinner I should be good.

Tuesday 2/17/09

I was 193.4 this morning. So up from yesterday, I guess the food I ate this weekend finally showed up. Today I'm cutting back on my carbs and calories and being super good. Right now with what I have planned for the day I'm at 671 cal, 44 carbs, 12 fat, and 103 protein. That's without dinner, so now I need to figure something good for dinner. Maybe just some grilled chicken and veggies, that should keep my counts good for today. I have a weigh in appt at the clinic on Saturday, so I want to make sure I'm back at the 192.8 (or less) that I was the last time I weighed there.

Last night I wasn't super hungry, I could have probably gotten away with not eating dinner, but my husband grilled some steak, it was so good that I ended up eating the whole huge thing. But it was good.

Rant about clothes sizes

I'm really tired of different brands and even pants in the same brands not fitting the same. I only had 2 pairs of pants to wear to work and 1 pair of jeans for the weekends, so on Friday I went to JC Penny and tried on some A.N.A. pants and jeans in 14 and none of them fit. (This is the same brand that I bought 2 pairs of pants recently in 14s and now they are really loose on me.) I tried on some other brands and I ended up buying 1 pair of 14s and 1 pair of 12s. The 12s are snug and I will wait a while to wear them, but I can zip them and move around just fine.
Over the weekend we went to a couple stores to see if I could find some jeans. I tried on some levis size 14s and there is no way they would even come close to fitting. I refuse to buy anymore 16s since I can fit in some 14s and even some 12s. So I broke down and went to the Lane Bryant outlet and bought 2 pairs of size 14 jeans. At the outlet, they still do the regular sizing instead of the right size or whatever it is. The jeans I got are low rise and feel really good on. I'm happy with them.
It just gets really frustrating that you can't pick up any 14 and put it on and know it will fit.

Lunch today, I feel like I was pretty good. I did go have sushi, usually I order a combo that has 2 entree options and then salad, miso soup, rice, and 4 california roll slices. I ordered the tempura and teriyaki beef for my 2 entrees. I ate the salad and the soup, I ate the 4 california roll pieces, the beef and 2 pieces of the tempura. I have 5 huge pieces left for my afternoon snack. I didn't touch the rice. Usually when I go there I eat the whole thing and could probably eat more, but honestly I was feeling just fine after the salad and soup and probably didn't NEED to eat any of the rest. I'm proud of myself. I feel like I'm doing pretty good with my choices and my self control. With all the choices I had during the weekend, I did really really good too. I finally feel like I'm in control when it comes to food. Now hopefully I can continue that.

Monday Morning

After I calculated my calories for yesterday I decided not to eat dinner. Between breakfast and lunch I ate soooo much fat and carbs, I didn't think my body needed anything else. I had originally planned on doing a steak day today because I figured the scale would not be nice today, but I was at 191.8, so far I haven't gained anything. Since I didn't gain, I ate breakfast, I'm going to keep my carbs as low as possible and watch my weight and see how it goes. I am supposed to do one more week of no sugar and no starch, but I'm wondering if I need to since I didn't gain at all this weekend. I was pretty good though for the most part. I really want some sushi though. I was thinking about going for lunch today, but I'm not sure, I might just be good and go to the cafeteria and have a salad.

Valentines Weekend

I feel like I didn't do too bad this weekend. My husband and I went away for the weekend. That was so nice. But I did eat things I normally wouldn't. But in the big scheme of things I think I was pretty good. Saturday morning we went out for breakfast, I got an omelet and it came with hashbrowns, I told myself I would just try a bite, so I took a bite and it was way too crispy and it didn't taste good so I spit it out. It wasn't worth it to waste the calories and carbs on something that didn't even taste good. At lunch I had one bite of a fry and I did have a grape martini. Oh my gosh, the martini was so yummy. Other than that I only drank red wine. We also stopped at the candy shack, I got a couple sugar free truffles, oh my gosh they were so good. For dinner I was a little tipsy from the wine I had been drinking, so I didn't have very good self control, we went to a mexican restaurant and I had a chili relleno and I also ordered flautas, the flautas weren't very good so I didn't eat them. Breakfast today I was "bad". I had eggs benedict (with the english muffin) and a couple bites of the hashbrowns. That was really good. Then my last bad thing of the day was a burrito from Rubios. When I got home I got on the scale and it said 194.8. Not too bad since that was in the afternoon and after eating. I'm hoping the scale is nice to me tomorrow morning.
Tomorrow is back to healthy eating. No sugar and no starchy carbs. I think for dinner tonight I will just have a protein shake.
So that was my weekend.

Maintenance Day 10

This morning I was 191.8. So basically I am maintaining, which is good. But I was kind of expecting to still see losses. In a normal world if I was eating around 1200 calories, no sugar and no starchy carbs and my fat is coming from olive oil, almonds, cheese and beef - then you would think I would be losing something. A little frustrating, does anyone have any insight? I will ask the clinic, but I don't go in until next Saturday.

Maintenance Day 9

I woke up in the middle of the night hungry. I haven't had that happen in so long (well since before the HCG). I got up and had 2 oz of steak and about 1/2 of blueberries. I figured that was a good choice. I mean I could have chose the huge brownie that my mother in law sent the boys for Valentines day. It looks really yummy and it was just sitting on the counter, but instead I was good and had protein and good carbs. So when I got on the scale this morning I was up a little higher than I wanted to be, so I'm not counting it, since I did eat in the middle of the night. I will see where I am tomorrow. This weekend my husband and I are going out of town - it's our 2 year anniversary of when we first got together. I hope I can be relatively good this weekend.

Maintenance Day 8

Last night we had taco salad for dinner. It was so yummy. I wanted more, but I couldn't tell if I wanted more because it was so yummy or if I was actually still hungry, so I decided to drink some water and chew some gum. That did it - I wasn't hungry still - it was just yummy. I didn't have anymore, instead I'm having it for lunch today. :)
For breakfast this week I have been having an egg white and a whole egg scrambled with 1 pc of turkey bacon and then coffee with a scoop of medshape protein powder. It's kept me pretty full in the morning. This morning my husband got home from while I was making my lunch, so I asked him to make me breakfast. Food always tastes so much better when someone else makes it. :)
Still didn't work out today. I really need to get going on that. I felt kind of fat this morning. My pants didn't seem to fit like they did last week around my stomach. The scale said 191.3. Well, the scale is frustrating me because I get on and it says 191.3, then I get on again and it says 192.7, I try again and it says 192.7. I don't get it. I tried my other scale and it said 191.8 - so I'm going with the 191.3 today. That's up from yesterday, but it's not bad. Now if I just get the exercise in there, I would go down.

Maintenance Day 7

I have been feeling like I'm eating too much at each meal, and then I feel sick to my stomach about an hour after I eat and by the time it's time to eat again, food is the last thing that I want. I've been trying really hard to get my calories up, but it doesn't seem like my body wants that. I called the clinic today and they told me it's ok to not eat the full maintenance calories and to eat what my body needs, but to make sure I'm still eating frequently. So based on that I'm going to listen to my body and just eat enough to keep me satisfied and see how that goes. She also told me that my carb range and fat range sound good. So I'm happy with that.

I didn't work out again this morning. I was cold so I didn't want to get out of bed. I know - excuses. I even woke up at 5:15, so I had plenty of time. I just need to get into the habit of it again and just get my butt out of bed and do it. Yesterday morning I was 191.2 and this morning I was 191.0, if I keep losing at that rate I can lose 7 lbs by the time I start my injections again. I would be happy with that.

Maintenance Day 6

I know all I've been saying the past couple days is how scary it is to be eating again. I don't want to see the scale stay the same or go up, I want it to keep going down. I'm eating lunch right now and so feel like throwing up, it just seems like so much to eat. 6 oz of chicken, some asparagus and some apple slices. It's not too much to eat, the whole meal is less than 300 calories because I'm not eating the whole apple with lunch (I snack on it throughout the day). My calories for the whole day are only 1148. But I honestly can't imagine eating any more than that.
Last night I was a little hungry around 7:00pm so I had a protein shake and I was fine. So my calories ended up being over 1200 for the day. I know that I need to be eating more since I don't have the HCG in my system, but it's so hard. I just hope when this is all over and I'm at a healthy weight, I will also have developed a healthy relationship with food.

I didn't get up and work out this morning like I planned. I was so tired when the alarm went off at 5:30, so I slept till 6:00am. Tomorrow morning will be easier because I can do it even if I get up at 6:00 because I only have 2 kids to get to school instead of 3. So that's my goal again tomorrow, it's only 20 minutes out of my morning, so there is no reason not to do it.

Maintenance Day 5

I'm having a hard time getting the right balance of carbs, fat and protein. It's actually kind of scary being able to eat again. Before I just knew how much protein I could have, 2 apples (or strawberries.....) and veggies. I didn't have to worry about how many carbs I was taking in, and I knew I wasn't really eating any fat except what was in my meat, I didn't have to worry about calories. It was easy. Now that I'm logging everything and trying to eat enough calories but still keep the carbs and fat down, it's tough.
I logged my food for the last week of VLCD and I was averaging 600-750 calories, about 45-50g carbs, around 100g protein, and about 10g of fat. So I guess if I'm basically doubling my calories (I'm supposed to be around 1500-1600) then I should be doubling everything else right? So far I'm staying pretty steady around 1150-1180 calories, but the last two days my carbs have been high - 88 and 115, but it's mostly from fruit and milk. Today I have my food planned out - 1180 calories, 66 carbs, 31 fat, and 164 protein. When I originally put in my planned food, I had less than 1000 calories, so I added two protein shakes. I am having a hard time figuring out what to eat to get my calories up, but keep my fat and carbs somewhat low. Any suggestions?

Today we are taking the kids to see a movie, so I think I will take my apple slices to munch on instead of popcorn and candy. Now that the HCG is out of my system, I'm still not craving any sugar and I still don't miss it. We were looking at sugar free ice cream yesterday, and I just couldn't buy it. I don't feel like I'm ready to put that kind of stuff back into my diet yet.

I was also thinking this morning that if I keep eating at the calorie level I am, I should still be losing weight. But I wonder how long my body will be happy with 1200 calories a day. Tomorrow I'm going to do 20 min turbo jam in the morning. I'm gonna try to do it every day this week and see if I see any results. It would be cool if I could be down in the 180's before I start injections again in March. Realistically if I can still lose 2lbs a week I could be close to being in the 170's by the time I start again - that is if I don't gain any when we go on our honeymoon. :) That's what I'm going to focus on between now and the honeymoon.

Maintenance Day 4

Last night's dinner was so good. I felt so guilty after eating it though. I know I shouldn't have, but after eating so little and no fat for 7 weeks it seems really weird eating more and fat. I had an omelet and fruit. Total was about 1125 calories. I'm supposed to be eating about 1500 calories a day. I think next time I do the omelet I will do it with 3 egg whites and 1 whole egg. That would take some of the fat out of it. My omelet had 1 pc turkey bacon, and 2% cheddar cheese, but it was still pretty high in calories and fat.

This morning I'm going to have a tall skinny vanilla latte. Not sure what I'm eating the rest of the day.

Maintenance Day 3

I guess I need a different title for my blogs now. My last injection was Tuesday night. I talked to the nurse last night and she agreed that a break might be beneficial for me right now. I plan to start up my injections on March 22nd.

Today I'm so hungry. I planned my food just like any other HCG day, but I upped my protien at breakfast. I've ate my lunch and some of my apple slices and I'm still hungry. It's gonna be strange getting used to eating more food and bringing more food to lunch with me. And now I guess I will have to track my calories again too. (I hate that)

So now that I'm not doing my injections, as much as I wanted a little more freedom with my food, I'm kind of scared. I don't want to gain and I don't want to maintain, I want to keep losing! I've decided I'm going to try harder to get exercise in. One thing I'm not happy about is that even though I lost 3% in body fat I also lost lean muscle mass. I was 109lbs when I started and now I'm 102.8lbs, so I want to see if I can get that muscle mass back before I start the injections again.

I had a banana this morning with breakfast. It was nice. Not sure what we are having for dinner tonight yet, but I'm going to go shopping this weekend and get some greek yogurt and some fat free sour cream and not sure what else. I still can't really have many carbs (at least not the ones I really want - potatoes, rice, oatmeal, pasta) but I can have dairy --- oooh and cheese. I can have an omelet - I'm so excited!!!! I think we will be having omelets for breakfast tomorrow!

HCG Diet - Day 50 - 2/5/09

Wow, day 50. Crazy!!! I still have my headache and I'm still feeling miserable. Last night I didn't eat dinner again. I really wanted a peanut butter and jelly sandwich last night and since I couldn't have it, I didn't eat. Well then I had a dream about hot dogs. The first hot dog I had ketchup and relish on it, then I had another hot dog with ketchup, relish and peanut butter and grape jelly on it. If you ask me, it's bad when I start dreaming about hot dogs with peanut butter and jelly on them.

I was supposed to have an appointment on Saturday, but I called and moved it up to today. I think I want to start a break now, I want to eat. Maybe if I start now I will have better luck maintaining while we are on our honeymoon. Then I will start back on the program after we get back and go another 5-9 weeks. Part of me is scared to stop now, but I haven't really lost anything in over 2 weeks and I've been miserable the last two weeks. So it's time for a change - I think. My last injection was on Tuesday night, so that means it's almost time for me to up my calories and fat. Woo hoo - cheese, nuts, milk and yogurt - here I come!!!! :) I know it's the little things that make me happy. Ooh and pork! Now hopefully the nurse will agree with me.

HCG Diet – Day 49 – 2/04/09

I've been slacking on my blogs….. it's been really busy at work this week and last night was "date night" so I was busy last night too. This really is the period from hell. Sorry if that's TMI. It's been over a week and I'm still flowing heavy and my head is killing me today. My weight was up 2 lbs today too. I'm sure it's all cuz of TOM. Sometimes I hate being a woman!!!!!

So yesterday I retired some pants. I bought them in December, they are a 16 and yesterday when I put them on they were too big to be comfortable. It's a nice feeling but also frustrating to spend the money on clothes I can't wear very long. At this point I only have 3 pairs of pants for work and 1 pair of jeans that I'm comfortable in. But the jeans are almost ready to go too.

HCG Diet - Day 47 - 2/2/09

Not a bad day today. We tried Mahi Mahi for dinner, it wasn't bad. Seemed more filling than tilapia. It was a pretty busy day at work and ended with a tension headache.

I wore a shirt today that I haven't worn in so long and even when I did wear it, it was a little tight and I only wore it a couple times - but when I put it on it actually fit like it was supposed to. Woo Hoo.

I'm finally close to getting out of the 190s, only a little over a pound to go. Maybe I will be lucky and see 189 on the scale tomorrow. Probably not, but I can hope right? Till tomorrow.....

HCG Diet – Day 46 – 2/01/09

Here are my stats after 45 days of this diet.

Starting:	Current:	Loss:
Weight: 215.9	Weight: 191.4	24.5 pounds
Calf: 15	Calf: 15	No loss
Thigh: 22	Thigh: 21.5	½ inch
Hips: 46	Hips: 42	4 inches
Ab area: 44	Ab area: 37	7 inches
Waist: 36	Waist: 31	5 inches
Ribs: 37	Ribs: 33	4 inches
Bust: 40	Bust: 36.5	3 ½ inches
Arms: 13	Arms: 12	1 inch
Neck: 13	Neck: 12.5	½ inch

 

I think I've done pretty well. The clinic says you can lose up to 30 pounds in 45 days, so I guess 24 ½ pounds is pretty good. I won't lie, I wish it was 30 pounds, but if I think about it this way, almost 25 lbs in 45 days that would make almost 50 pounds in 90 days – that's pretty good. This morning when I was measuring and weighing myself, I was looking at myself in the mirror and I really can see a difference. My husband made a comment yesterday that I look like I've lost more in my hips, so it's nice that it's noticeable. Maybe later I will try on some clothes and see what I can fit into in my basket in my closet.

Well, that's about all I have to post this morning. Maybe I will post more later.